maandag 7 oktober 2013
A pool of tears
After thirty years of happiness & fun, I had to say goodbye to my husband Jan yesterday, who fought against cancer for more than a year.
Jan was my knight in shining armour, the love of my life, my anchor. It's only been a day, but the girls and I miss him so very much. It feels like drowning in a pool of tears. We try to be strong, be 'big girls' like Alice in 'Alice's Adventures in Wonderland' or 'Marines', like Jan used to say, but it's so very hard.
My heart is broken. It feels so unreal sitting behind my laptop. Everything could easily be normal, but it isn't. I can't see him sitting in his chair any more, while I am writing this post.....
Don't know where I will go from here and when I will be around again.
Sending you Love,